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Breastfeeding

I could probably write a novel on this topic! I really wanted to breastfeed and didn’t want to give Eliza formula at all for at least the first few months of life. While in the hospital, we tried repeatedly to get her to latch on but she wasn’t latching correctly and she wouldn’t eat and it was so stressful.

The nurses would come in every couple of hours and try to get her to eat but it wouldn’t happen. Her pediatrician said that her stomach was the size of a grape and if she didn’t eat for the first 48 hours of her life it wasn’t a huge deal. It made me feel a little better because Eliza just wasn’t getting it.

So after a while the nurses started trying to push formula on me. I have no issues with babies having formula but it’s not what I wanted at the time and I wanted MY wishes respected. One nurse basically made me feel like a bad mom for not giving Eliza formula. I was so upset. My issue was that I wanted to find out what was wrong and why Eliza wasn’t latching on but none of the nurses or lactation consultants could give me an answer. If they didn’t know, how was I supposed to figure it out?

When I flat out refused to deal with the night nurse who made me feel like shit, she sent in a lactation consultant at 3am. This woman spent FORTY FIVE minutes trying to get Eliza to latch on. Eliza was crying, I was crying, and it just wasn’t happening. This woman finally say that Eliza “may” be tongue tied but she wasn’t sure. She sounded so unsure and like she doubted herself and so I thought that must not be the issue. I had no idea what that was but she said I should talk to Eliza’s doctor about it.

Evil nurse feeding Eliza formula through a syringe

I mentioned it the next morning when the pediatrician came by again to check on her and she said that maybe she was but she couldn’t tell and would check it out further when I brought her in for a check up. This was frustrating because I wanted an answer NOW. I was so frustrated with John Muir hospital and my post-birth experience.

The first few days at home were challenging. I loved her to death but breastfeeding was such a challenge and I used to dread every few hours when I would have to feed her. She also still didn’t seem to be latching correctly- it hurt me and it didn’t look right but I couldn’t pinpoint what was wrong.

The day after we came home from the hospital we had a nurse come by to check on us and weigh Eliza. She was 8lbs, 7oz when she was born and she was now down to 7lbs, 5oz, which was more than the usual 10% that babies tend to lose. On day 4 of her life I took her to a lactation consultant (not affiliated with the hospital) in tears and found out after about 30 seconds that Eliza was tongue tied. During the appointment she gave me something called a nipple shield that would help Eliza eat. Once again, I was in tears because I was FINALLY feeding my baby for the first time since she was born.

In addition to this new nipple shield contraption, we had to go to a doctor at Oakland Children’s Hospital who would cut the part that connected her tongue to the bottom of her mouth and voila, she would be able to feed normally. They said that right after the procedure Eliza would be able to nurse correctly. Well, that didn’t happen and I was heartbroken! We went home and I tried again with the nipple shield and she was fine.

Eliza giving me the finger while she eats

Fast forward five months and she is STILL using the nipple shield. I was never able to wean her off of it and she never really seemed to get a good latch without it. Oh well, it doesn’t really matter I guess because she’s fed and growing and happy and that’s all that really matters.

I also have to say that I later found out that the wonderful lactation consultant who helped us was supposedly fired from John Muir (way before I was there) for telling a woman that her baby was tongue tied. Apparently only doctors can diagnose this type of issue and nurses and lactation consultants can’t say anything to the mother, even if they know the problem. I think this is a HUGE disservice to mothers who deliver at that hospital.

I could have been saved 4 days of hell if someone at that hospital would have been able to tell me definitively what was wrong with my baby. The nurses and lactation consultants are trained and see this every day and it’s infuriating that they couldn’t say anything with any certainty. I’m sure it’s part of the bureaucracy but I think it TOTALLY sucks!! It made me even more sure to trust my intuition and reinforced my choice to go outside of the hospital services to seek the help that I needed.

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I am the world’s worst blogger. My intent for this blog was to chronicle my pregnancy and Eliza’s life so that we could all look back and remember. Instead I’ve gone almost FIVE MONTHS without writing a thing. So while memories are still relatively fresh, I hope to look back over the next few weeks and chronicle the first five months of her life. Stay tuned.

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Eliza at 5 months:

Weight:~13 lbs
Clothing size: 0-3 months
Diaper size: Pampers 1, moving into 2 after we are done with this box of 1s!
Likes: smiling, laughing, sleeping
Dislikes: dirty diapers (still). must be changed immediately!
Naps: short morning nap and sleeps 3 hours in the afternoon
 
5 months old: 8-24-12

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5 months old: 8-24-12

5 months old: 8-24-12

 

5 months old: 8-24-12

5 months old: 8-24-12

 

5 months old: 8-24-12

5 months old: 8-24-12

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